i said yes! yes!
i mean i did sae yes!
weeeee!!!!
its gettin better thn i expected..
happy though..
im afraid bcox bein hurt many times..
which really lost th ful trust?
i jux kip douptin u..
which i find it unfair?
i duno hw to explain my trust towards u..
as in..i noe ur true..
bt i fear..
for everythin..
jux afraid of losin again..
its lik..
im prepared for th worst..
although..
of cox i wun wan it to happen..
wish mi luck!
i would b glad tat it could last for 1 month:)

YTD was soooo..
i buy wrong topup card..
singtel..to starhub..
so angry so upset of myself..
i oso duno hw to tok to u abt it..
sad sad sad!!
bt nw..its over..
cheers..=D
im so sorie..
blur mi..
th forgetful one..

ling! ling! ling! ling! ling!
scool over!!!
todae hor..lao joseph cme pinch mi ah!!
cox she sae my maths drop frm A2 to B3..
thn i sae she very xiao qi..giv mi 2 more marks thn A2 le wad..
in th end tio scoldin frm her..thn kip on beat nn pinch mi eh!!
hmph! suan le suan le..
after scool bus to j8 straight away wth co.
actually wan go eat pizza hut de bt nid w8 1/2 hr!
we very impatient wan..
so in th end go mum mum japanese food..
thn started playin hid nn seek!!
so funny siol..
worst part..
we blur blur tak mrt..wan to go amk hub..
thn go bradell!! blur sotong!!
after tat went hm chattin on fone wth him:)

miss him lik crazie!
no no no..
cannot love him so much..
wil suffer in th end..
im jux w8tin for th perfect dae..
when my trust to him go to th top top top!
hahas..
actually..i trusted him long ago..
jux kippin quiet to let him proof more..
banggggggg!!!!!XDXD

cough cough cough!!
no voice no voice no voice!!
sore throat sore throat sore throat!!
wth..very xin ku eh!!
sad sad sad..cant do anythin wthout my voice!!
he mak honey water for mi eh todae..
so hapie>.<

ytd had trainin for sec 1..
it was lik..tired!!
they wun listen to a word we sae..
god damn..
when break cassandra kahyi nn mi plus er..serene?
we burst out to cheer for our class boys..
in th end when lamian came they al went sayin
ah la ah la nth to c oreadi..go la go la..!!
lols..cassandra nn kahyi so hilarious..
went bck to finish off th devastatin trainin nn took rest..
stayed in guzhen rm for awhile chattin nn laughin abt 'secret'!
cassandra kahyi nn mi were laughin nn rollin on th ground!!
went bbt nn saw class boys..
started jeerin at alvin chew cox he dint run into any position!!
playin only la..:)
went hm after tat wth sheelan..

did badly at nafa todae..
nth went right at al..sighs..
after scool..was th worst part..
he lost his iphone..
accompanied him th whole afternoon tryin to find solutions..
kahyi zuenn nn cassandra oso help..
tried to cheer him up as much as i could..
bt it dint help much..
he dint hv th mood..
went to find d.m bt no use..
in th end went hm..
hw i hope everythin goes wel..
i pang seh zuenn kahyi cassandra nn jess todae..
im sorie..i really dint mean it..
i could not jux see hiim lik this..
i hope u guys would understand..
im really sorie..

lastly..
cheer up kaes?
dun push th blame al on urself..:(
its not ur fault..

i can jux slp any moment nw le..
really very tired siol..
todae..happen so many things lei..
mornin sheelan rashdan nn alvin kip on plae soccer in class..
th bal fly up fly down seh!!
thn sheelan ask mi to pei him plae..
bt i scared he kick very hard..
so he sae he kick soft soft..
in th end is i kick hard hard thn bal fly until kailin there!!
slept at bangala lesson bt he kip on ask mi wake up..
wth..exam finish le wad..stil go through paper..
thn recess mi cassandra nn kahyi very jialat..
tio aim by shorty black face nn tekong!!
haha!! tekong face black until..wa seh..
smuggle sweet drinks bck to class..
thn this jessica go nn buy th big big packet biscuit..
difficult to put in pocket la!!
get bck al my results le..okae la..
bt thn fail sci eh..zhe me ban..
after scool went mum mum wth boiifwen kahyi nn cassandra..
jessica couldnt join..cox her daddy very strict nw..;(
pei boiifwen w8 for bus thn he cal mi go his hs..=D
omg!! his brother is shuai until!!!!

i oso duno wad i was thinkin todae..
i dun dare to think positive nor negative..
i jux tried to forget everythin..
thn u lei..
wad were u thinkin..
u made mi <3 u even deeper..

Happy Bthday Maomao!!
haha!! todae when to celerbrate maomao bthdae!!
left scool wth:
[boii]alvin chew sheelan alton xue ke maomao lamian avery
alvin ng potato hady nn jacob plus ryan!
[girl]boiifwen cassandra kahyi jessica ahyu nn jiayi
PLUS teacher quack! wth!
cox she sae wana get th mac olmpic cup thn ask us go wth her..
sae she treat food..
so we headed mac wth long long journey wth tat ah quack..
nbm..she stil kip on snatch my ryan away eh!!
hmph! bt after tat ryan pul mi across th road ignore her..
haha!! next stop went to bowlin club!! left teacher alone..
tats when sheelan gave mi his first kiss!!XDXD [cheek de cheek de]
so fun at bowlin!! my first shot all ZERO lei!! tian ah..
plae nn plae thn jess nn ryan secretly go out buy bthdae cake!!
took turns playin thn started feelin cold..
so mi nn boiifwen go nn wear sheelan uniform..
went toilet nn tak pic wth zuenn..
kip on plae th hairdryer!!=D
we sang 4 times of bthdae song todae lei!!
finally cut cake nn saded..
jess nid go hm..
i acompany her to w8 for taxi nn said sayonara..
left bowlin club nn headed for mum mum..
bt started splittin..
left mi boiifwen cassandra kahyi alvin sheelan ryan nn avery..
we walk pass some old folks dancin thn started copyin them!!
we started eattin nn planned abt havin class chalet nn all..
head hm wth boiifwen nn sheelan..
plus plus..im sheelan's girlfwen!!XDXD

anway..todae saw u after scool bt u nvr smile at mi lor..
suan le suan le:(
im afraid so sudden..
i kip mistakin him as u..
through his movments nn actions towards mi..
bt no la..u both r different..
jux some conclusion..couldnt b real..
lastly..
do wad u think u feel rite wth..boiifwen[zuenn]!!
smiles!!=D

weeeeee!!
todae so fun seh..
although results not so satifyin la..=P
went kfc wth co. thn rain lor..
so we tak long long long long long cut to there..
laugh lik crazy when we were there nn th tables all split apart sia..
haiyor..thn we went to our favourite hmland..which is..
NTUC!! hahahaha!!!
over there most fun to plae de..
thn we started mystery action again..
jess nn zuenn went to buy softtoy for cassandra bthdae..
so mi nn kahyi pul her to go nn find maomao present..
laugh nn laugh nn laugh nn laugh..=D
cox we sae wan buy him pencil case..
so we went to th stationary department..
gt alrt pattern lei!!
gt dora explorer..ben ten..spider man..barney..
most fun part mi nn cassandra go nn carry th barney bag!!
kahyi help us snap snap photo..
ppl around tot we xiao gao!! XDXD
thn kahyi kip on sae urgent nid go toilet so we kip on mak her laugh..
suddenly she cannot hold animore thn rush to shh shh le..
sway sway longgggggg queue ah!!
went to next level thn we lik walkin maze seh..
turn hw many rounds oso cannot rch th end..
waaaa...kahyi mad until!!
met up wth boiifwen nn jess again..
cassandra soooo hapie!!
her smile was lik th same as kahyi tat time..
next destination went on serch for maomao present..
actually wan find toilet paper giv him de bt no more!!
haha!! in th end buy wan simple simple pencil case..
thn kahyi brin hm let her maid sew we luv w.c [weichun]!!
plannin to bluf him tat is we sew tmr!!>.<

mayb todae mood really very gud ba..
mayb i really let go le..?
mayb i dun mind much le?
mayb im really use to it le?
chat on fone wth u was so..
i duno lei..
everythin felt relax nn cheerful too..
although we kip on disturb each other..XDXD
why cant my everydae b lik todae..?
so hapie nn cheerful..
jux lik mi th last time..

if i go on lik this im really gona die..
quick!!
push time to th very front..
i wan go scool la!!!
sad sad sad..);
gt no mood leh..these few days..
although exam over..bt stil feel kinda uneasy..
duno is bcox scared of gettin bck results..
or bcox of u tat im troublin abt..
hmm..i feel much better le..
lettin go was difficult at th start..
i tried nn..wel..
mayb th hurt had gone deep..so deep..
tat i realize i should hv woken up..
stil..i cant get over u..
i noe i let go le..
bt theres stil th grip tat im holdin on to u..
nn i noe th answers under ur heart..
ya..im torturin myself only..
i noe theres better guys out there..
i jux cant seem to open th big gate to let them in..
i jux gt to break through it somedae..
its al under fate nn destiny..
somedae..nn im sure..
i would turn bck to myself again..
standiin on my very own=D

priscilla..
i hope u dun tak th same footsteps as mi..
th situation might not b th same..
bt im sure u dun feel good as wel..
cheers..=)

waaaaa..finally exam end..
so stress out past few days..
jux had 'sping cleanin' in my rm..
filled wth papers bks fulscaps pen everywhere ah..
whole week nvr clear..lik storerm..
woke up at 12 plus todae!!
cox last nite had bbq..so fun!!

ytd went hm shower after scool..
thn went j8 wth boiifwen jess cassandra nn kahyi..
'tour' around mini toons to find present for our steppin down seniors!!
so sad eh..after tat we plan to secretly buy present for kahyi..
she so bodoh seh..she tot we wan buy for cassandra..
so she lead her to th toilet..
thinkin tat we were buyin for cassandra!!
when we gave her th 'watermelon' she so suprised eh!!
i hope she liks it..i think she lik it alrt la..
cox it resembles alrt lik..eh..ah hem ah hem..cant sae!!>.<
we went mum mum nn met up wth th seniors..
while w8tin..th 5 of us went to plae th floor game ah..duno cal wad lei..
abit lik touch screen one..thn gt alrt kids there..
so we lik challengin them..
bt hor..th small small kids kip on step on us ah!!
thn i nid to plae until very careful..if not step onto them..
tio scoldin frm their parents lata..
after tat we waited for th 3 SNAILS to ride bicycle frm mars to earth ah!!
make us w8 sooooooooooo long..walao eh..
plus this banzhang nvr cme..hmph!

bus to mdm ong hs nn th whole bus was filled wth abt 20 of us seh!!
had so much fun!!
we went to th pool nn plae..
thn this stupid yuefang go nn splash water on mi!!
make until my whole pants w8 lei!!
bt not only mi la..
kahyi nn cassandra pants oso wet..
haha!! esp kahyi..she jump down nn th water splash until her shirt!!
so funny..!! she was lik damn angry..
mi nn cassandra went to 'bbq our pants cox very wet!!XDXD
blablabla..plae plae plae thn pei cassandra w8 for cab..
after tat no cab one cme lei!!
i sit alone at th busstop..so scary..
bt thank u gt ppl pei mi chat..

lastly..EXAMS OVER!!
can slow down pace finally..
at least dun nid worie so much of studies nw..
sighs..=)

sayonara..my 21 marks of geography!!
die le la..teacher giv so short time..no time to finish..
suan le suan le..
this mornin forget to brin thermometer ah!!
heng heng borrow frm xs nn samuel..thank u la..
went mac wth zuenn kahyi cassandra nn jess..
we plae until very crazy in th end whole table almost flip over!!
hahas..went amk hub to find present for joan bt no money..
thn boiifwen buy mi couple ring!!XDXD
i so touched when she hid behind her bck nn gave it to mi..
jess oso buy for cassandra chain chain..
poor kahyi..gt nth..
we went ntuc to find her watermelon bt cannot find..
i wan buy th elephant wth big big ears!!
very cute eh..
thn th escalator spoil le..
make us walk up nn down up nn down..hmph!
we w8 for bus at interchange nn saw 'moxiaoling'!!
after tat went hm nn tok on fone wth chocolate..
weeeeeeee!!! so hapie..u recovered alot..

ytd tio bully by xs nn samuel la..
i go refill water thn they tak cassandra water throw up nn down
kip on disturb mi..!
eat eat wth co. nn sir plus additional guest..sheelan!!
we al go hm study geo thn started msgin him..
i told him al my fustrations nn sorrows..
i dint mean to..bt i really very upset past few days..
i stil duno wads in ur heart..
wad u thinkin abt..
so sad..u sae i change le..
u realise it too..
there r some things i really hope u would understand..
i hope u knew th things which u nvr tot abt..
bt u nvr knew..
u nvr knew tat i was there along..
u nvr knew i was happy or sad..
u nvr knew my real inner feelings..
u nvr knew..

lastly..
THANK U BOIIFWEN[ZUENN]!!!

Hapie Bthdae Kahyi!!!
dun sae i nvr post hor!!
when to scool wth zuenn nn sir todae..
sit wth cassandra in class todae..
chat chat study nn slp together..lol..
dun mistake kae??>.<
solved maths question together wth cassandra boiifwen nn jessica..
kip on teachin each other..it was fun luh..
bt this kahyi dun wan join in..
sae wad..she ownself do more peaceful..haiyor..
hm econ turn to jess nn zuenn go take nap..
thn mao mao xue ke nn alton al 3 kip on shoot nn suan mi..
through out whole lesson for abt 2 hrs lei!!
si alton stil go nn tear my test paper ah!!
jealous tat i get higher thn u izit?? haha!! XDXD
after scool when eat eat wth co.
laugh until siao ah..
plus todae kahyi bthdae..
wil pei her go out after exam de..=)

dint expected tat mood changed immediately when i tak bus..
zuenn nn jessica saw..bla bla bla..
i was glad i nvr c..if not..sigh=(
5 days nvr c u ler..
wonder wad u doin nw..
i feel so heavy nn..?
duno luhs..
had confusin feelings..
sadddd!!!
take cares kae..
hmm..jux chiong finish geo..
tired..tired..
really very tired..
chocolate..
wo zhen de hen lei le..

early mornin walk under th rain!!
bt gt sheelan pei mi go scool..hahas..
went to scool thn kept laughin wth cassandra jessica nn kahyi..
tmr big mouth bthdae!! congrats!!>.<
we wan to buy wan bigggggg big 'watermelon' for her!!
break record!!
nvr slp in class todae!! haha!!
although stil very tired..ytd slept at 12 plus lei..
tired..could not slp last nite..
bt was cheerful todae in class..
isit bcox i tryin to forget him le?
or purposli stae cheerful de?
or really giv up le?
or jux dun wan show out my feelings?
bla bla bla..bu zhi dao la..
run away frm frm joseph lesson wth boiifwen nn ryan todae!!
bt jessica tio caught le la..haiya..
went 107 mum mum wth regular. nn thn sir-jian rong join in..
he kip on cough cough cough..pig flu!! i kip on pat his bck..
take care luh..we go busstop thn he cough until duno wad..
th uncle auntie c le al walk away sia!!
shared experience nn secret wth boiifwen on th way..
shock nn surprise though..
slowly thought bck th past..

eeya..fone get confiscate..si flamingo la!!
so jialat..cannot msg nn tok on fone wth u..
walao eh..plus so many days nvr c u le..
gt so many things wan ask nn tel u lei..
miss u le la..
hmph!

wasted my dae todae..
did nth at hm..sian..
mornin watch t.v..read newspaper
went bck rm to do studie..
in th end jux sit there dae drea..
scribbled some rubbish..
blablabla..started to get fustrated..
alrt ppl msg mi thn very irritatin..
dint really feel lik replyin..
tot of shuttin down my fone..
bt i was afraid u would cal..
lie on bed whole afternoon..
listen music..tot bck many things..
BORRRRRRING!!!!!!!!
wanted to go out wth u..bt cannot..=(

ytd til nw..u haven cal mi..
eh..last nite gt la..bt i slp ler..
sad..we lik driftin apart..dun wan..!!
i actually tot it might b better this way..
for mi to giv up..
bt i felt more remorse..sorrow nn lonely..
smth was missing..
it was ur acompany..
i think its of habit of mine chattin wth u everydae..
suddenly miss u alot..
wel..u might not noe..
i waited so long..so tired..
th only choice is to giv up..
even though i dun wan to..
i hope u find ur right choice..